Dream a little dream.....

I'd like to think I'm not a typical woman.

I do have some traits, good and bad. But mainly, I am independent, and like to do my own thing. Especially when "my own thing" means traveling around the globe meeting up with my mates.
In the final days of 2006, I was randomly jumping from myspace profile, to myspace profile, bored, waiting for the year to end so my World Domination Tour (and, my god, did we dominate), to kick in on the 2nd, where I found a profile for a guy in my city. His occupation caught my eye, as he was working in the same industry as me. I sent a message, as people seemed to go from company to company within this industry, and most people tend to know each other.

Surprise. A reply back.
And that's how it started. back and forth on myspace, then msn, then it went to a phone call on new years eve.

Then I left the country.
I had my sights on a European boy which was wrong wrong wrong.
He was very attractive, a boy I'd met before (another story all together!), who told me that one night when we were hanging out together in England, had to fight to NOT molest me (in a good way!) when I fell asleep on his shoulder one night. But he had a girlfriend, so there was guilt involved. His restraint was quite something. But... moving on....

I did meet someone in new york city and had one of those 'whirlwind romances' .. my own sex and the city, but that's a whole other story.

Anyway, I finally came back to Australia and resumed the it began after a few months. We spoke, we met, we hung out, it kept going and going, and now, 18 months later, we're still together.
He knows me well. He knows I love my friends who are in all corners of the world.
He knows about my new york romance. He knows everything there is to know.
He also knows I'm leaving at one point, and he's just going to take this as far as it can and then we'll go our separate ways, looking back at a good time.

Excellent. Suits me fine.

Sex is great. really fuckin great. The issue we have is that we're very different, and thing differently, which causes conflict. It's not terrible conflict, but conflict all the same.

Last night I went over to his house and was keen to...well... get a little lovin, and so we did!

Well... I got started anyway, but yeah. it just didn't quite happen.
Leaving me rather disappointed really.
Sometimes this happens, I'm too preoccupied to give it my full attention. This is in no way stating that he's bad in bed. (oh my no). He was willing, but I was just not in the ball park.
So I went home, bummed I couldn't get it together.
Watched some TV, read some news articles, and fell asleep.

And then the dream started.
I don't remember it all. It was hazy.
However I do remember the AMAZING sex, that left me gasping when I woke up..
Jesus Christ it was incredible! My dream... argh. My toes curled...

Except. It wasn't my boyfriend in the dream.
It was my new york guy... And he was hot, and sexy and asking me how I liked it, and what I wanted, and it was hot.

So after all those awesome sensations, and I came back to reality and thought.

"Oh Shit".

I felt guilty. My first relationship ended horribly with my ex cheating on me, so I'm even more loyal than normal, and these things get to me.
I felt so horribly guilty.. argh my head. What was I thinking?
At work I wrote myself a note to write about this in here, feeling ever so guilty... Wondering if I was game enough to tell my significant other.

That in itself is rather interesting. as I cannot ever keep my mouth shut.

So I told him. When I refused to say who else starred in my dream, I got quite a shock...

"Tell me. I have it narrowed down to 2 people"..

huh wha?... Not jealous? Not angry? not feeling cheated on?.. that's awesome.
Am I nuts/too girly for thinking this was significant??

He was actually disappointed that the people he had narrowed it down to were not the people in my dream..

Interesting....

How would your significant other react? (male, or female)
Am I oversensitive?